and feeling the effects of not sleeping much, which leads to not eating properly, which leads to me having black outs and getting really sick to my stomach, this isnt appealing, especially when the black outs occure whenever they want, so driving has been a little worrysome.
sometimes i go through spells where i cant sleep, no matter how hard i try. no matter what boring thing i think of, or most uninteresting channel i watch, yesterday was the stock exchange, and i actually found myself thinking of buying into some. add in the fact that my family arent always the quietest bunch, especially when my brother brings his group over, which is his wife and 4 kids, love them to pieces, but having a 3 year old poke at you til you wake up after finally falling into a somewhat sleep to ask "auntie do you have any gum" isnt always cute. that and i am on nights at work, where the kids are sneaking out the window to go meet up with friends and drinking, and having one of them ask you if you can adopt them, (she was in all seriousness to) and then and then and then. this morning i feel cranky, and tired, and frustrated, and frazzled and and and and......
Lord i just want to sleep, and not feel like crap, and to figure out why i am feeling like crap, which my doctor better come up with or he is fired.
Aw, Shelly. I wish I could give you a hug! I completely understand about not sleeping. I have suffered from insomnia since I was a teenager! My doctor diagnosed me with depression and gave me antidepressants. Unfortunately, one of the side effects of antidepressants is trouble sleeping! So he also gave me Ambien. I take one every single night. I sometimes still have trouble sleeping, but it's not near as bad. Anyway, reading what you wrote really touched my heart!
I'll be praying for you. One thing that is important to remember is that rest is very important too. Don't fret too much when you aren't able to sleep - at least allow yourself to rest.
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Grace is the acceptance of that which is rejected. ~Paul Tillich
Help my dear friend to get some peaceful sleep. Shelly is a great girl, and has been through a very traumatic time in her life, with her divorce and all. Please let some good sleep and dreams come to her. She is a great friend and needs it very badly. For in Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.
Take care of yourself and go see a doctor; they might have something that can help you.
thanks for being real with us. did it help to have to think and type it out?
is there a possibility that the recurring insomnia may have a physiological cause?
how big a can of whoopass do you open when you catch the kids sneaking out? and what on this green earth did you say to the kid who asked if you'd adopt her?
thanks guys for thinking of me, my tsa family is the best!
peggy- the thing is they dont need to even go out the window, the shelter is voluntary, they can use the door, when they go out the window all it really does is cause us to worry and makes for a lot more forms and paperwork. as for the young girl who wants me to adopt her, well its a tough one. she has been with us before, and it was me that she disclosed suicidal ideation to so she knows she can talk to me, its tough because when i told her i couldnt adopt her because it would be against policy and a huge confliction, i became just another person who doesnt want her, so to me that causes a little worry as it does not take much to set this girl off. and apparently i take alot of stuff on that i dont neccessarily have to. yeesh! as for the reoccuring insomnia, i am begininng to think that its because i have things going on and then dont deal with them properly, lol or at all. i am not the worlds best talker, and it takes alot to evem come to you guys with things. so then i worry, and then cant sleep. thats my theory anyways. this is something i am currently working on.
not sure why i am not a talker really. i never have been, it may have had to do with the way we were brought up. my family isnt a talking family. or it could be because sometimes i wonder if what i have to say is really that important, which also goes back to upbringing. anyhoo, i dont mind that you poke, just dont poke to hard i may deflate.
lol i guess my name and whiny do ryhmn. never knew.
You know that you can talk to me about whatever you want to, Shelly. I know that I don't have all of the answers, only God does, but I am a good listener and will try in any way possible to help you, my friend.
You know that you can talk to me about whatever you want to, Shelly. I know that I don't have all of the answers, only God does, but I am a good listener and will try in any way possible to help you, my friend. Tater tots are good like that!
and you are the best tater tot i know!! thanks for everything you do for me jeffrey
Sorry to hear about your sleep problems. And you aint whining, trust me I have 2 kids and I KNOW what whining is. I'm always available to spill your guts out to. I gots big shoulders for you to cry on if you need to.
Love you girl, keep your head up!!!
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