i am usually laid back and relaxed. i usually have a quick joke to make someone smile. i usually join in and relax. usually. as of the last couple of days i havent been like that. paranoid yep, wondering when my ex is going to try and come back, even though his being here was supposed to be a secret, even though his false profile was supposed to let him be where ever, even though he asked for people not to tell me he was here. do i post or dont i? same things i felt on the other board, at least there he came right out and attacked my posts instead of slithering in like a snake. am i angry? yep still, cant seem to let it go. angry because this is my place, tsa is my safe haven, and its a safe haven for my friends here. and i am angry that he's tryingto take my safe feeling. i am angry because lisa and teddy feel bad, i am angry because i hate feeling like i am weak, even for a moment. i am angry because someone i care about alot feels overwhelmed and worried, not to mention angry to, i am angry that when he was in the chat room he made my friend feel creeped out, and very uncomfortable. am i worried? yep a bit of that too. worried because i dont know when the stalking/harrassment is going to end. worried because when i asked the police about certain behaviors being demonstrated i was told well unfortunatly until he does something we cant really do anything. and when i worry it usually turns into feeling scared. i hate feeling like this, i hate sounding like a broken record. i feel tired and drained, and not to mention spent. all in the span of what 72 hours has my life been made into a chaotic dramatic whirlwind. sheesh, hate to see what the next 72 will be like. sorry folks naked homer isnt feeling dead sexy today, and last time i checked the little blue fish didnt feel like swimming, days off are soon. hopefully my spirit is restored and refreshed. and maybe my ex will realize what a doofus he is and grow up. anyway, see you all in 5 days.
All of us love you and support you, Shelly. I hope that this little sabbatical will strengthen you and give you the spiritual support that you need. Don't worry about your ex. God is MUCH BIGGER than him. If he even TRIES to do something to hurt you...he will be hurting in a BIG way. You just take all the time you need to recuperate and get re-charged. Let Jeanine help you and comfort you with your problems and fears. And never forget...
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
i am usually laid back and relaxed. i usually have a quick joke to make someone smile. i usually join in and relax. usually. as of the last couple of days i havent been like that. paranoid yep, wondering when my ex is going to try and come back, even though his being here was supposed to be a secret, even though his false profile was supposed to let him be where ever, even though he asked for people not to tell me he was here. do i post or dont i? same things i felt on the other board, at least there he came right out and attacked my posts instead of slithering in like a snake. am i angry? yep still, cant seem to let it go. angry because this is my place, tsa is my safe haven, and its a safe haven for my friends here. and i am angry that he's tryingto take my safe feeling. i am angry because lisa and teddy feel bad, i am angry because i hate feeling like i am weak, even for a moment. i am angry because someone i care about alot feels overwhelmed and worried, not to mention angry to, i am angry that when he was in the chat room he made my friend feel creeped out, and very uncomfortable. am i worried? yep a bit of that too. worried because i dont know when the stalking/harrassment is going to end. worried because when i asked the police about certain behaviors being demonstrated i was told well unfortunatly until he does something we cant really do anything. and when i worry it usually turns into feeling scared. i hate feeling like this, i hate sounding like a broken record. i feel tired and drained, and not to mention spent. all in the span of what 72 hours has my life been made into a chaotic dramatic whirlwind. sheesh, hate to see what the next 72 will be like. sorry folks naked homer isnt feeling dead sexy today, and last time i checked the little blue fish didnt feel like swimming, days off are soon. hopefully my spirit is restored and refreshed. and maybe my ex will realize what a doofus he is and grow up. anyway, see you all in 5 days. shel
I wish I could be there, right now, to put my arms around you and just hang on!
You know I have your back girl. I will keep you in my prayers my dear friend.
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Be yourself!!! Don't try to fit into someone else's mold, you won't fit!!! And that just leads to utter misery!!! Live life to it's fullest in Christ's love every day!!!
You just take all the time you need to recuperate and get re-charged. Let Jeanine help you and comfort you with your problems and fears. And never forget...
