After a long day at work, I was exhausted. I am still exhausted. Well, I'm going through a lot of stress. Anyway...
Right before I fell asleep, I said aloud, "God, I honestly don't know what your plan is for me. I don't know what to think about being gay. I don't know what to think about Jesus, I don't know what to think about girls, or faith, or communion, or religion, or hatred, or discrimination...God, I just don't know. All I know is that I am attracted to guys. And, I'm in love with David. I know that he adores me, and is seriously considering spending the future with me. How do I know if he's the one?"
I was basically just ranting and raving about how I'm this little peon on the Earth, and getting things off my chest. Ya...we all have our insecure moments. I'm having a phase of insecurity. =)
Well, when I woke up, my phone rang. On the other end was David's parents. Nathan (David's brother) told them what happened to me about my car accident. And, David's father wanted to personally check on me to see if I was ok. I thought that very nice of him to call me out of the blue and ask.
It's funny. Because his whole family is treating me like one of their own...or, trying to. (And, they are against homosexuality...very against it.) However, their family is reaching out.
So, coincedence? Or answer to praying aloud? I dunno. I leave it up to God to judge us all. I told God if I was straight, I'm sure I'd be having a few kids by now...lol.
Thoughts? Questions? Comments? Concerns?
God bless you all.
(I may have found him...but, I'm not going to get my hopes up.)
**goes online and looks at wedding bands**
*Hugs* Darrel
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That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
You know, Darrel, those kinds of things happening always amaze me. But why should they? God is here, all around us, and is concerned about those things that concern us! I don't believe God uses us like puppets, but I do believe that He stirs something in us to cause us to want to do certain things. (Boy, that was a rambling sentence!) I think the fact that David's family called you is a direct result of your prayer! If we will just pay attention, we will see God's hand all over our lives!!!!
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Grace is the acceptance of that which is rejected. ~Paul Tillich
