Over the last three days, money has been flying out of my bank account way too fast. But I look at my online bank statement and I've needed everything I paid for. It's just so much at one time. And I mean A LOT.
But here's the thing, I did my occasional search on Amazon.com and eBay for an extremely rare book from the early 1900s that I've been wanting. All of a sudden a copy appeared on Amazon, and supposedly in great condition. The price? $300. It's probably worth more than that. I've been looking for almost a year for this book, and it appears right now. Of course I bought it. I couldn't let it get away. I can't even say that I regret the decision.
But here I am trying to get myself out of debt, and the last few days have probably set me back a month, and maybe more.
Please pray that I can get my regular debt payments back on track. Please pray that I can get out of debt. As things stand, I've got 3 years and 5 months left. Now it's probably six months.
I know what you are going through, too! I have also spent a LOT of money this month on stuff, but I really needed! I had to buy new pants and shirts because my old ones are now too big and baggy from all of the weight I have been losing! And that kind of stuff can really add up after a while! And then I had to see my doctor time after time for everything form blisters to a twisted ankle!
I have also bought some books on eBay, too. But just like in your situation, they were DIRT CHEAP, too! (one book that I got was only ONE PENNY!) The only thing that I can tell you is the same thing that I have been telling myself whenever I am tempted to buy something at work that I really don't need: NEEDS BEFORE WANTS! Yes, I know that I sound "preachy", but the truth is that this is the only way to get out of debt! We can pray for money all that we want, but the truth is that the Lord isn't going to bless us with something that can wind up becoming our own undoing...and money has a very strange way of doing that!
Always remember that God will make sure that your every NEED will be met. However, your "WANTS" are another story...God hasn't promised that you'll have a Mercedes-Benz every time that you ask Him. I hope and pray that things will improve with your finances and that you will have some kind of "windfall" in your future!
Mattie: To make a long story short after a disasterous relationship (loosing everything except the clothing on my back and mountains of debt), I set up a spread sheet with my pay and what I owed. I set up a goal for myself to have certain items paid off. The spread sheet was to give me a bottom line which I had to live on for the month, after rent and bills were paid. I had to challenge my self to live in those means. I locked up the credit cards, after I re-negotiated lower rates. I set a GOAL to pay off some of the higher balance cards. I paid minimums on the lower balance cards and attacked the high balance ones. I would not use my ATM Card for any purchases, and always paid cash for them. I was thrilled this past year as I was able to knock off a $5000.00 IRS bill (with monthly payments since 2001) and one credit card that had a $3,000 balance, as well as whittle down the other 3 credit cards I had. It takes work, dedication, and always questioning myself, DO I REALLY need that or can I get by by not doing that. God has shown me that I can live on less, and still he provides for my every need. Prayers for you. Best Regards from SoCal Dave
*gives you a HUUUUUUGE hug* hehehehehe! I'm keeping you in my prayers, buddy! You're the best, and God will take care of things. Just have faith, and don't let the world get in the way of things.
Love ya, my friend.
Darrel
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That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
Seriously. It's okay. You know what...God gave this gift to you, because you desperately want this for so long. And you deserve it. *hugs* But I'll definitely pray for you.
I hope and pray that things will improve with your finances and that you will have some kind of "windfall" in your future! 
