I think that is how a feel at the moment. I am SOOO STRESSED OUT, I am being mean to people around me for dumb insignificant things, I cant sleep but at the same time I can't concentrate enough to do what I should be doing which is: writing my thesis, finishing some experiments, looking for a new job.
OMG I just feel so overwhelmed at the moment. I am so far behind on my writing (need to come up with about 200 pages and I am on 12, it should all be over my experiments). Most importantly I NEED TO FIND A JOB.
Some time back I tried taking it one day at a time, making sure I staid calm and worked on something even if it was for a short time and the month just went by so fast. I need to use my panic state for good use.
Any way LOL sorry for putting a downer to start off the day or as I am ending it.
Don't be sorry, Victor. We love you here and we care about what you care about. We'll all be praying for you to have a focused mind and a rested body. And we'll pray that you'll easily find the perfect job. Remember this: 1 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:1-10
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Grace is the acceptance of that which is rejected. ~Paul Tillich
Hang in there Victor. I will be praying for you! Mama it is so nice to see that you are back to your old self after the surgery. I am sitting around doing laundry and cleaning the house today! Whats everyone doing?
Thank you for your prayers guys. Today was a long day, I didn't have a good night sleep. I think the only sleeping I did was from like 7am to 10:30 when my lab mate called me and ask why I didn't go to our 9:30 meeting this morning. I also have a cold, may be the reason why I felt so crappy yesterday. Any way, I will be heading home soon and straight into bed. May be some chamomile tea before bed.
