Hey guys...I know I have not been around for a long time. I am sorry that I am always busy. I come to you and humbly ask for prayer:
A little over 3 months ago, I lost a friend. We had a big falling out and it has not been the same since. Its a really long story, but to get to the point: it was a friendship that was not supposed to end. It was as simple as two people having a bad day that ended up ramming heads over a stupid matter that resulted in an exchange of words that neither of us really meant. I tried to appologize twice. Even though at the the time I felt that it wasn't entirely my fault. I tried to take the whole blame, but he wouldn't accept my appology. So the friendship ended. Also ended a writing partnership because we had come to work together. I was sad for a few weeks after that and put it behind me. Then 2 months later, I had a vivid dream about him and our broken friendship. The dream weighed heavily on me for days that it pushed me to pray for the restoration of this broken friendship. I have not stopped praying for this broken friendship to be mended. Day in and day out, night after night, week after week I continue to pray in the hopes that God will restore this friendship once again. I am not at liberty to contact him, though I know his phone number, address and email address. It is a long story as to why I cannot. He too has all my contact information. I have no idea what compells me to pray diligently over this particualur friend, friendship. But I am compelled to pray every single day that God may restore it. I have not asked others to help me pray over this matter. It really never occurred to me to ask for help to pray for this. Until tonight. I know in my heart that this friendship was not supposed to end. I have nothing to gain by being his friend other than just pure, simple friendship. God knows this. And yet for some reason, God has not answered this particular prayer. I don't know why. Perhaps God is using this matter to deepen my prayer ability, maybe to make me more dependant on Him, maybe to strengthen my soul to pray prevailing prayers....I do not know. All I do know is that something compells me to pray and pray for the restoration of this friendship that I never tire praying over. All I ask is that you please pray for my and my friend James. I would really appreciate it.
Thank you, Steve
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Lamentation 3:24 The Lord is all I have, and so in him I put my hope.
I'll be praying for you and your friend. But I have to tell you - sometimes friendships end. Don't let that damage your faith. Just trust that James is in good hands.
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Grace is the acceptance of that which is rejected. ~Paul Tillich
I agree with Mama. I have had so many friendships that I could never believe would end...but they all have,and it hasn't happened just once. I know it hurts...and you are right to keep praying, but remember not to be selfish...that you should be praying for the well-being of yourself and James. Sometimes the Lord sends us down different paths...and it's really hard to accept that sometimes...I understand. I'll be praying for you.
